The first time I lost my mother

 

13-1-2019

 

THE FIRST TIME I LOST MY MOTHER

 

It is 2 in the morning

There is a helicopter flying overhead

Like a thought!

Or like my mother’s madness

That ebbs and flows…

Moments it flies low

Lights searching for

a criminal on the run

hopping across suburban gardens?

Heart thumps in tightened chest

Like it has a mind of its own.

Or are they searching for someone

Fallen into the Thames

Across the road

Thump, thump, thump

 

There are thoughts inside my head

Waves of emotion over my chest

Mother’s cruel words

That ebb and flow, ebb and flow

(A conspirancy of sorts)

So that I stay awake all night

Listening to a man hunt

Or a woman’s rescue

I pray till dawn.

 

 

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